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Wednesday, April 2, 2008

Wacky Weird Wednesday

Today was a good day...felt kind of weird but it was good. The kids and I hung out at home and I finished up some cleaning (well almost finished). One of my college YO YO MAMA's is coming to visit this weekend. Jennifer is a hoot. We always have fun. I haven't seen her in over a year. Wow, it's been too long YO YO's!! I am excited about that and then the kids and I are flying to Florida to spend some time with my family. I am so excited about that I can hardly stand it. My parents are taking us to Disney. Addy talks about it EVERY day. She asks who is going and what we're going to see. She claps her hands and says, "I am SO excited." She is hilarious. I miss my family so much it hurts, literally it hurts. I hate that part of this. I hate that my kids aren't within driving distance of either set of grandparents. It sucks...hate to say it but it really does.

So, while we're on the topic of hurting (SIDENOTE: Keegan headbutted me last night, on accident, but I thought I'd have a black eye today.) back to hurting: I found a CD this morning of our last Sunday at PowerLine. Oh my lands, I watched the pictures and cried like a baby. Addy crawled on my lap, before my tears, to watch with me. She was so funny. She said she wanted to go back to that church. It made me really sad. The people there loved Addy so much. I just miss that. I know we're where God wants us. I had a friend tell me that, we'll I'll just quote her email:
"He has you there for a purpose and He is faithful. Trust in His faithfulness to provide you with what you need (and even what you want). I wouldn't put it past Him to put you in a situation where you were stripped of everyone you used to lean on to force you to lean solely on Him for awhile. He is tricky like that."

She's wiser than she knows. Her words hit me today and I was glad for them. I've been okay most days but today just made me sad. I think it was the combination of my feelings and then Addy saying names of people she hasn't seen in over a year and then not remembering others names that I wish she would have. I'm so glad she has fond memories. I will definitely tell her how much she was loved by so many there. I'm so glad for that.

Today was also weird in that I had 3 or 4 people call me and tell me crazy things that are going on in their lives and ask me to pray. I want to be a prayer warrior. I want people to ask me to pray for them and have the confidence that I will pray. That is all I can do most days. There's a lot of yuck in this world and I hate that. I wish we could all just get along and wish the best for each other. Nothing is so big that it can't be forgiven and moved past. It's crazy, a couple of the calls were about sickness and health which just makes me sad. And a couple were about relationships and that breaks my heart too. As Christians, I know we're not perfect and issues and situations are hard but can't we just forgive and let go. I have a philosophy that I try to remind myself of especially when I get frustrated with other people. It is that we're all trying to do the best with what we have been given. Nobody is out to get anybody else for the most part. I'm trying not to react with hurt or anger...gosh that's so hard sometimes. I'm trying to keep my lips shut when I want to scream from the rooftops about lies, gossip, and injustice. I'm trying to be positive and happy if at all possible, which can be hard for me, there are days I really struggle with negativity. And the last thing is very few people know the whole story (including me) so I try not to judge or form an opinion and remember there are always two sides of every story. I think I've grown a lot in this last year. I'm glad, I very well could have crawled in a shell--I know doesn't sound like me.

Last randomness of this post, so last night I went to the Body Blasters Class which is an hour of weights and it's torture...seriously. It was good and I was sore. The next class was ZUMBA which is a lot of Latin dancing. I love going to that class because I like to shake my groove thang in there with all the other women (it's at Lady of America). So, I stayed and did 3/4 of the class before I had to go to band practice. I was proud of myself, that was my first time doing 2 class (almost) in a row.

So, how's that for a Wacky Weird Wednesday Post. I may not blog until I get back from Florida. Until then....


rachel larkin said...

Wow, thats at busy day! Great that you did the two classes, I could never do that! I know what you mean about the whole Prayer Warrior thing! I would love to be known by that myself! Have a great time with your family, enjoy every last moment!

Levi said...

You go girl.