Moved by Music

I'm getting a jump on my "thanks" for tomorrow. I was listening to our playlist for tomorrow and I was moved.  We're singing Revelation Song.   It is powerful but oh my gosh, I sat here and the tears just came, I mean like bitter beer face crying.  I needed to hear and be reminded of the power that God truly has.  I need to be reminded that He was and He is and He is to come.  The "is to come" is the one that trips me up. I worry and I get anxious and I stress.  This song was the perfect reminder with bitter beer face and all that HE IS TO COME with all power and glory and wisdom.  And when I even type that, I think, "who the heck do I think I am?"  Glad for the reminder as I sat in my room at my computer with hands lifted in the air singing at the top of my lungs tonight.  It was definitely a moment!! (I was kind of surprised my kids didn't run in to tell me to turn it down.)

Thanks

I decided to do a thanks a day during November.  It's been really cool to reflect on all of the people that I am thankful for.  I've been blessed. 

As I was reading about the First Thanksgiving and why we celebrate that day, I was reminded that there are still people in our country who do not experience freedom and who are still oppressed.  That makes me so sad. I want my kids to understand and appreciate what we have but I also want them to be moved to action to help the oppressed.  I want to be a good example of that for my kids and I'm not sure I am.  Definitely need to do some more thinking and "acting" in that area.

that's it!

HELLO?

So, I was slightly offended (not really) when asked earlier this week if I was through with blogging.  I guess by behavior, all signs lead to that conclusion but not in in my heart.  I truly want to document and fill you all in ....because I know you are all so curious as to the happenings of my life.  I realized though at times, my blogging desire borders on a strange desire to complain, fuss, vent on the world wide web.  Although sometimes I find that appropriate, no with my motives or intentions.  I'm trying to tame my tongue and more so, my thoughts.  I've struggled the past month with negativity and criticism.  I am reading a book called, The Dance of Anger. It is fabulous.  I am trying to figure myself out which is not an easy task.  I'm trying to figure out what is it in me that causes such a strong reaction of negativity to certain situations. I don't have many answers but at least I'm connecting some dots for myself.

In other news, this week is crazy.  We've tried very successfully to reduce some schedule chaos.  This week, however, is a chaotic schedule week.  Monday night I had a Scentsy open house at a local high school, then an event at A's school.  Tonight we had K's end of season soccer pics & party.  Tomorrow night, we're going to celebrate Chick-fil-a's 5 year anniversary, Thursday, we've got a meeting, Friday, I have a Scentsy open house, Saturday we have a birthday party.  Isn't that wack-a-doodle??!!  My goal tomorrow is NOT to leave the house except to take & pick up A from school until dinner time.  I'm so doing it;)

Alrighty, that's an update.  You're all caught up on me!!!

The Wagon

I can't seem to stay on it.  I have jogged/walked 3 days this week so far and did some yoga one day.  I've got to be consistent, that's so hard for me.  I'm trying to eat better and I have done okay this week.  It's a battle for me. I'm really trying to remind myself that this is for my health.  UGH!!

In other news, I tried my hand at making pickles this week with my friend Lori. We had a lot of fun and they seem to have turned out pretty well.  It reminded me of my friend Michelle in North Carolina.  She was a master at canning, preserving, and just homemade stuff.  She knew it all.  We had so much fun with that.

That's all I've got today.  It's only 8am and I might be ready for a nap.

Running

So, I'm trying to be better to my body.  We're trying to cut out all foods with high fructose corn syrup & hydrogenated oils....do you know that's in a lot of what I like??? I actually feel better eating this way but I'm still craving dr. pepper & diet coke.  So, this week, in honor of my body, I started running again.  And I use the word "running" very loosely.  I think I'm going to have to start over with the couch to 5K program to build up my endurance.  I'm not super happy about this change. I like to eat and not exercise BUT I also like to live and be healthy. I want my kids to see my being healthy too.  They're worth it and so am I:)

So, at Catalyst Church we're doing a series on Revelation. I have really enjoyed it. If you want to catch up, watch it here.  It's been very thought provoking.  A few weeks ago the phrase said was something like this, "We may not have what we want but God provides all we need."  Honestly, I have really struggled with that ever since.  A friend and I even had a conversation about it after church this last Sunday because it was so powerful for her. My initial reaction to that is, we don't always have what we need.  There are Christ loving people who are hungry and poor and they don't have what they need.  And I hear people, mostly Christians (I hate to say it), say things like, "I'm blessed with this money or this thing or this job."  And I don't fault them for that but I'm just not sure how I feel about it.  When we first moved here and had 2 house payments for 14 months.  I was talking to some very well meaning people and they were talking about when they moved, their house sold in 2 weeks and how they felt so confirmed with their decision because God blessed them with a quick sell.  It bugged me because God still blessed us even paying double house payments. We were taken care of but I when I say we were blessed I mean in our relationship with Him. We drew closer than we ever had before because we were so desperate for Him and HIS provision.  And by provision, I don't mean money, I mean the provision that we were His.  We even had the conversation so what if we foreclose...well what if we do?  We're still His and He still loves us. 

So, when I hear people say God blessed them with this or that and God provides their material needs, it bugs me.  Sometimes, our basic needs are not provided for. Sometimes we're hungry and we're poor (truly).  What I've come to learn that the phrase means that regardless of our earthly state, God provides what we need and what we need is totally Him.  It isn't about our humanity, it's about our relationship with Him.  That's still a hard concept for me. 

Alright, that's my thought for today that started a few weeks ago...still working through that.

Well Hello there................

I know I've been MIA for awhile.  Summer has been awesome & crazy all at the same time. The kids and I spent two weeks in Florida.  The first week, I was with my YoYos and the second week with family.  It was absolutely incredible. I honestly had a really hard time coming back to reality.  Whenever I'm with my family, it takes me a little bit to reacclimate to life.  I get a bit resentful to be so far away and I kind of just want to stay in my shell and then I pop back out of  it.  I realize we are where we're supposed to be for now and that's okay with me.  I still get sad leaving..it was quite painful for all 3 of us this time.  This was K's first time to be so distraught about leaving Nana & Coachy.  A & I always cry and carry on when it's time to say goodbye.

But, we're back and we've enjoyed June and some of July now.  We stay busy with playdates and pools.  I have really enjoyed all the time we've spent together as a family.  Levi has been going to work SUPER early and getting a lot of his studying and prep work done before others are out and about.  We've done a lot of fun, family stuff and it's been great.

I'll write more...I've got one more blog topic in my brain so I'm going to go with it while I'm thinking about it.