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Sunday, June 1, 2008

Reluctant

I am reluctant to blog today. I am exhausted physically and emotionally and I just want to sleep. I'm going to copy an email that I sent today. I want today to be over and to forget that it happened. Here's the email:

Just wanted to let you know about an incident that happened today. We rescued a mini schnauzer and have only had her a week. Levi left early this morning and the van broke down again (but for real this time…we thinkL). He was waiting on the tow truck. I had just gotten Keegan and let the dogs out. We were all in our bedroom and the dogs started playing rough, I was just getting ready to tell Addy and Keegan to back up when she moved and scared Becker. He had his mouth open and his teeth went across the top and back of her head and made 2 large gashes and one small one. I had to call the neighbor to take us to the ER. She has 25+ staples in her head. She’s fine and it was a total freak accident. It has been a tremendously hard day. I know that I’ve never felt the hurt and pain as deeply as I felt it today hearing her scream and being soaked in her blood. I am so glad she’s fine now. I think we’ll give Becker to another family where he can be the only dog. He has been so kind and gentle to our kids but he doesn’t know his own size or strength. I would never want this to happen again. It breaks my heart to think of giving him to someone else but I cannot express in words how my heart felt today holding my baby as she went through that ordeal. I just wanted to let you know.
Love you,
Heather


It was an awful day, long and exhausting. I am so glad it's over. Our church is so special and I was so emotional today but I"m so thankful for them and their outpouring of love. This whole time we've been in Texas, I've struggled because we came from a church that loved Addy so much and I've struggled with feeling like we didn't have that here. Well, today I am assured and felt in such a tangible way that my kids are loved and are taken care of by our church family. It was awesome to read your cards, hear your kinds words on the phone (and in person) and accept your gifts for Addy. You guys don't know how much that means to a Mom. We are so blessed to be here and you don't know how healing that was for me in more ways than one.

I hope I wake up tomorrow and forget like Addy hopefully will. No seriously, they gave her medicine with an amnesiac in it and the nurse told me she will not fully remember what happened today. I wish I could have a dose of that.

Love,
Heather

3 comments:

rachel larkin said...

WOW!! That's so hard to deal with! We had to put our dog to sleep last summer also (we had 2). "Kuma" was great with our son, but again, like you said, didn't know his size and strength. I'm thankful he never laid any kind of harm on my Aidan, but he did attack our other dog and left his cheek flapped completely open. It was then, we knew we couldn't possibly keep him any longer. We spoke to our vet and the best option, unfortunately, was to put him to sleep. I will pray for you and your Addy.

PS_ love the amnesiac thingy...I hear you about wanting a dose for yourself, it's awful to see your children hurting in any way at all!

Levi said...

Heather,

You did such a great job with this ordeal. You snapped into Mom mode and did things we never imagined you would be able to do. I am so proud of you. My kids are so lucky to call you Mom.

I hope we don't need you to snap into this mode in the future. I love you tons.

Levi

Anonymous said...

Sweetie, I'm so sorry, but I'm glad to hear that she is ok. It's awesome to see how the people there responded in your time of need. I'm am continuously amazed at how God comes to us when we need him, even by way of a church family. You are loved - there and in other places. You are an awesome mom!