DISCLAIMER: I'm going to be honest. I am not naming "church" names. I do not mean to be offensive or hurt feelings and I'm sure I'm going to be over critical but that is not my intent. If you know me, you'll understand this.
I don't know any other way to be than real and truthful...I'm going to try really hard not to God talk...that's honestly a HUGE turnoff for me. Here's the truth, I know God is with us. I know God has called us. I know God will never leave us. Those are not thoughts or even doubts for me. But the reality of it is, even knowing those things, life happens and sometimes it sucks and is not great. I wish Christians would be more honest because their honesty does not indicate a mistrust or a betrayal of who God is and what's He's done. It's been very refreshing to share honestly, the pain of our move with our Texas family. We are all still hurting over our transition. Quite frankly, if Levi could have left his position as lead pastor and we could have maintained our life there, that would probably have been choice #1 but that was not a realistic, feasible option. So, here we are and life is progressing in a total different way. One huge hurdle is finding a church. What we had at Catalyst was so unique and lovely. It will be hard to find that. So, that leaves us with visiting churches. The first week, Levi was here and we tried a church that is a satellite church. I loved the music, seriously it was amazing. Top quality and top notch musicians and vocalists. However, it's a satellite church which means the pastor is not right there an we watched on video. The message was quality and great but just felt weird not being able to talk to him. Then, we missed a week due to vacation. Then, it was just the kids and I. We went back to the first church. They had a live speaker that week and I thought it was good. The music was killer, again. This church definitely has a cool vibe. Today, we tried a new church. The pastor was not speaking so it was not a normal Sunday. The kids loved their classes. The music was current but was not as phenomenal by any means as the first church. I'm not sure how I felt walking away today. It will be good to go back to see the pastor do the teaching and see a more "normal" week. It will also be good to go back with Levi. I think we will try a few more churches. I know I will not get a perfect church and truth be told, Catalyst was/is not a perfect church. We are going to have to find a church that fits all of us the best.
